97.2kg
After going to the doctor on Thursday I started having soymilk on my cerial again instead of cows milk. I'm amazed at the difference already. though really i shouldn't be, I've been through this lots of times before, but I always return to the cows milk because I prefer the taste. I should really just cope with the fact that I'm Lactose intolerant and get on with life. Just three days has improved my digestion and I suppose I get more benefit out of my food. I haven't been wanting to pick and pick the last few days. I even tried some dairy free white chocolate, and I just eat it in little bits. i've never had a block of chocolate last so long! And it's not like I'm not enjoying it either.

I've had a bit more energy and today I did two sessions on the exercise bike, one for nearly 30 mins and one for ten minutes - that's just about double what I usually do.

If I keep this up I might just lose weight!!!!

My daughter just said the most adorable thing.
She came to me with her new Bratz doll and said ... 'Oh look these jeans weren't made properly, they're ripped.' I explained to her that it was made that way. 'why? she asked, honestly perplexed. And I had to explain that ripped jeans are more fasionable. She seemed happy with that explanation, but it does point out how silly fashion can sometimes be.

I'm going to be using the "listening to my body" method.
From experience this is the best way to lose. This is how it works.

I WONT be counting anything (not fat, calories, points, kilojoules, proteins, carbohydrates, nada)
I WILL be eating when I'm hungry.
I WILL look for healthy choices (yes we all know the ones, the five food groups and laying off the 'sometimes' foods as much as possible).
I WILL be playing to my strengths. (I'm great at choosing helathy meals and I suck at choosing snacks. So I'll be eating five meals a day; breakfast, second breakfast, lunch, early dinner and dinner.)
I WILL be exercising (yes the dreaded E word, but lets face it I need to increase energy expended as well as reducing energy consumed in order to convince my body to give up it's reserves. I'll be doing 3 to 4 sessions of cardio a week (for only 20 minutes to start off with) and All up it takes only about 10 minutes.
I WILL be measuring my body to record size change as well as weight loss as muscel is heavier than fat, I've exercised every day in the past and lost virtually nothing, but I felt my clothes fitting better. Now I'd like to record that to increase my enthusiasm with results.
I WILL be getting on the scales (I'm addicted to them unfortunately)

And that's it really. i'm basically following the advice that I give to kids about healthy eating and exercise. I know it works. The hardest part will be staying aways from those 'sometimes foods' the fatty, sugary ones that I love.

Today's weight 97.4 (- 0.4 in just one day, I know it's mostly water and I won't always be so succdessful, but it's a great kick start)

Today's challenge?
It's my daughter's birthday party and I will have to stay away from the 'sometimes foods'. The midday meal will be a big one so I'll have to reduce my early dinner and skip the night time meal. but hopefully I'll be pretty full from the big lunch and not feel any physical signs of hunger. It will only be the physcological hunger pains I'll have to deal with (often the hardest). I will be having some of the birthday cake. I'll probably go for a walk tonight to compensate and to relax.

Current Weight
97.8kg
Current Size
18 - 20

I'm going to have another go at that old weight loss thing.
With weightwatchers I managed to lose 5kgs, but when i stopped going I put it all back on. So I'm back where i started, but fortunately not over where I started.

What has given me the motivation THIS time?
I saw an episode of Oprah where they were talking about vision boards. I bought a Weight Watchers magazine to cut up for the images of ideal body image and while reading it I just got inspired again. I've done it once before I can do it again.

So WHY do I want to lose weight? The two main motivators are self image and health.
* I'm actually not all that unhappy with the way I look (until I look at photos usually. LOL) It's the buying clothes that is the problem. Nothing I like fits me and instead of the feminine image I would like to see in the mirror, it's frumpy.
* My health is deinitely suffering form the extra weight. I know I've got liver problems and my digestion isn't fantastic. I snore and sometimes my knees hurt.

I've had a successful day today; eating only when I was hungry and doing 20 mins on the exercise bike.

Goals
4kg  by christmas
9 kgs by my birthday (end of Feb)

That's about half a kilo a week and quite realistic.

Overall Goals
20kg loss to 77kg
Size 14 - 16

You are supposed to eat because you are hungry and yet there have been times when I have put more food in my mouth even after uttering the words 'I couldn't eat another thing'.
So what are the reasons I eat?
I do eat when I'm hungry. I know my body's signals well. When I am being careful about what I eat I will have something planned for that moment that's nutritious and will give my body more energy. If I'm not prepared it's far too easy to reach for the wrong things.
I eat when I am tired. Often this means I reach for something sugary.
I eat with friends and family. Food has always been a big part of celebrations in my family and when we get together there is always food involved.
When I'm feeling negative emotions, I eat. If something isn't going my way I look to the sweets to bring me some comfort.
And that is especially true when I'm sad or feeling unfulfilled. It's like food fills in a gap.
There are even times I eat because I am feeling poor. Yes, if I have very little money in my purse I will use what is left to buy myself a treat. That way the feeling of deprivation is slightly less.
I eat because something looks, smells or is remembered as being delicious. That's why foods high in fat and sugar sell well - they look good and smell good.
Once a month I eat because I'm lacking in something. My body craves magnesium before my cycle, and I also want red meat. I took me quite a few years to realise that the reason I craved chocolate at certain times of the month was because of the magnesium in it.
Of course I know that the main reason for eating is to refuel my body and that is what I am aiming for with my recent changes in diet. I'm working towards being healthy and having a sensible relationship with food.